Kicking and Screaming

Dr. B came into our appointment today and said that she wanted to make sure we were on the same page.

"I just want you to prepare yourself that this could take about a year and a half," she said.

I just stared at her. 

I don't want to be on that page.

Come to think of it, I don't want to be in this book.

A year and a half.

A year and a half.

I don't think I can do this for a year and a half.

I don't think I can handle the ultrasounds, IUIs, progesterone pill popping, lab visits, early morning temperature taking, credit card swipes,  two week waits, and the "So...how are you doing?" conversations for a year and a half.

I will do it. 

I will. But, I want it to be known that I am going kicking and screaming down this year and a half tunnel.

I hope and pray that I come out of it sane and with a baby in my arms.  

Until then, the kicking and screaming shall commence.